What will be my last words when I will die?

I am a strong believer in Gandhi Ji. I believe that man of his blood are rarely born. People in politics are often criticized. So is Gandhi Ji criticized by his detractors. But once you are in politics you have to take decisions. Decisions brings you to criticism. But we must see a person in a broad view not from a myopic one. Hence, I feel that Gandhi Ji gives us reasons to learn from him.

Equally, I am not a believer in Maha Purusha or Great Ideal Man. I believe let the man be a man, don't make him God. There are many people equally important like Gandhi Ji. This undermines there contributions. Once we make anyone God we can't think anything negative against him. Nor we can digest anyone criticizing that person. But most importantly, making someone God or God alike subverts nationalism. I am a nationalist.

Gandhi Ji when died his last words were "Hey Ram". Generally, mother tongue and perceptions are intrinsic, natural and spontaneous. When I go in most deepest of my thought and think why Gandhi Ji said only these words I realize that his perception or intrinsic nature was religious and pure. Because when you die words which come out of your mouth are spontaneous. My respect for Gandhi Ji increases more.

I am scared. What would be my last words? When I will die there can be 2 possibilities. One is, I die naturally talking to someone or silently when no one is near me. Two, I may die unnaturally by an accident, bullet, etc. Lets take if it is a bullet, then? Whenever I am hurt my perception which is intrinsic and spontaneous will be an abusing word. If it happened then? If someone kills me, I may say..."Oh!! B*C*".

I must make it a point not to say these two words. As I don't want to utter these words when I die. Seriously man, the founding fathers of this nation had some serious ethics with them. Wish I could grow some of their qualities in me. Everyone of us should.  

Great time in Patanjali Coaching

I never realized while I started reading Philosophy that while reading I will enjoy so much. Philosophy as a subject is blessing to me. Later in these boring days I met few people in Patanjali coaching. Specially Manoj Bhaiya who turned into a friend. I will cherish discussions, fights and debates with you Bhaiya throughout my life. Keeping it here since I can look back to all this in my life. 

   

                            

               

              

Vow of Silence

I read that Gandhi Ji vowed for silence every monday. I read few reasons and benefits of this. J.S.Mill said that: Man is sovereign over his mind, body & soul. After I completed my vow of silence for the day I realized how abstract we are in today's world. We don't command our thought, it's the surrounding and people controlling much in us. I abuse when I am with my friends. With acquaintances I act sophisticated. But today when I vowed for silence I realized there is so much I can change in me. I learned few things I want to share and also because when I read this post again in my life I can ponder over what to inculcate in me.
1. I learned to be more tolerant.
2. At some point it is good to smile on your friends and avoid the needless argument.
3. It is important to realize that life can be so simple without a phone or worrisome thoughts.
4. It really structures your thought and makes you a better person.
5. Now I know better that how judiciously I should use my words.
6. I have not spoken the whole day a single word; tomorrow when I will speak I really know in the daily schedule where to avoid unnecessary conversation.
7. Finally, this experience will make you a calm being.

Life is all about experiences. I have decided to abuse less. I cannot stop abusing as I have to retaliate to my friends. But yes, when I die. Till that day I can inculcate all these above qualities. Including quitting abusing forever.

I love drenching with sweat..and then for few days I couldn't do what I want!!

There are things which completes my day. Few things always top the list to what I do when my day begins. One of the thing is going for jogging..coming back and watching birds in the sky with a cup of tea. Couple of days back I hurt my leg. I avoided the wound and didn't go for tetanus injection. Then it became serious. I discussed the same with a doctor and he is advising me that if the wound doesn't heels up we need to go for a surgery. Hope the medicine works, its been more than 2 weeks.

Today when I was cleaning the wound I couldn't see it when by mistake the scab over my wound got removed, I was thinking that how much one loves his body but times you yourself can't see it's interior, Not because of fear but because of disgust.

A passage echoed in my head which is of Buddhist philosophy. Buddha once said, "Regarding the body one should remember and contemplate that the body is only a combination of four elements (earth, water, fire, air), that it is filled with all sorts of loathsome matter, flesh, bone, skin, entrails, dirt, bile, phlegm, blood, pus, etc. Going to a cemetery (present day one should must go to Tower of silence where the Zoroastrian or Parsi community leave the body to be eaten by the vultures, etc) one should observe further how the dead body rots, decays, is eaten by dogs and vultures and afterwards gradually becomes reduced to and mixed up with the elements. By this intense contemplation he is easily able to remember what a body is: how loathsome, how perishable, how transitory!"

This brings me to think why this intense feeling for good sensation for the body let it be sex or good food? Thanks to my dear friend Navneet who made me thinks always how much secondary sex is. When I will fall in love at some point in my life I would surely try primarily to discover what is their under her skin, Under her skin their would be her thoughts, childhood (as I didn't have one), secrets, passion, what makes her cry and so much more.

A friend of mine mailed me a Galib shayari, "Hazaron khwahishien aise ki har khwahish par dum nikale, Bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle". Meaning: Though many of my desires were fulfilled, majority remained unfulfilled.