Dear 29th Feb

Dear 29th Feb,

I didn't meet you every year in my life because of your frequency. It's very rare you came. Since I am born we met on these following years:

1996: Probably our first  meeting was beautiful. I was in good mood. I was then pampered and cajoled.

2000: I remember you. I was in the guardianship of my most prized possession like we met last time. Black clouds were though in the sky. I was expecting a rain.

2004: I was expecting a rain, you gave me a hurricane. A part of my soul died.

2008: I first time learnt then I can do a lot of things. Clouds are still there. It is raining. Hurricane is too kissing me now and then. But yes, I managed to have my own world. Sure of one thing that no matter how bad it rains, sun will come up sooner or later.

2012: The rain stopped. Hurricane too. I am waiting for the wind to be more breezy. Sure of one thing, that dinginess does not accompanies me any more.

2016: Finally, Sun is about to rise. Days are fine. But yes I am working hard. Hoping that I will not let the part of my soul die again.

Yes, I didn't mean that you are bad. I mean how good you can be. Be good to me when next time you come. I even open my eyes in dreams to check that whether it is true or not.

Today, its all messy, my life, this post, my words, my heart, strangers, friends so much and still no one.

Next time when you come. I hope you see that the parts of my soul which died and about to die are back to life. As this is the only thing 'my soul' which is not 'messy' but turning dead.           

"I" the holy word and "Ego" the power word

Ayn Rand writes, " I" (the holy word) and "ego" (The power word) are two words that are despised by Many. But who despise these words are suffering from a disease called "we" and who don't know the value, the magic the two words (I & EGO) can bring to the society..to the humans.. Those are not just words..but virtues!!

Ego is fatal. How can ego be the fountainhead of man's success?

Ego brings negativity at the very inch of the second one hears it. As negativity for ego is the surname. But ego is lot more than a negative word. I believe ego is one of the most positive word one can have in his catalogue of words, if you know what is the less known meaning of the word.

Ego also means, "Consciousness of your identity; the conscious mind". Google search answers ego as, "The "I" or self of any person (Ego is Latin for I). In psychology terms, the ego is the part of the psyche that experiences the outside world and reacts to it".

Whatever you are searching in whole universe is exactly inside you. Your ego which is mostly untouched is always the first recipient of the opinions you make, of the things you observe, of the views or values you encounter. If you are conscious of  your identity you can be the most content person with coherent thoughts.

Without an idea of our ego the picture of our personality will be disproportionate. Disproportionate dreams and disproportionate soul. I want in myself a clear idea of my ego. A clear idea of what ideals I have and what exactly my values are.

I like people who have passion and zeal for atleast something. I don't care if it is cooking or pottery. I like people who are good observers. If an illiterate boy in my village can talk to me about the crops he grow. If he can tell me how he overcomes the problem of plant diseases and irrigation. If he can discuss to me for the possibilities of the agriculture market in his area, I will be amazed to talk to him. Because despite being an illiterate he is a good observer and this talk is better than, "What's up?".

People with passion and observant eyes are the people who know part of their soul. They have touched that part of their soul and in the process they are growing it.

Ego can be the fountainhead of your success. It can be the answer to all the emotional upsurge you have at times. It can promote in you a sense of peace and understanding towards your objectives. More important when you start knowing your ego, your start touching your soul. When you touch your soul, your soul starts growing.

Grow your soul !! What's up? Will not take you up. It is only required to start a conversation, not to continue a conversation. Grow your soul. Understand your ego. Be proud that you have an ego which you understand.