My statement of life

I am staring at the wall in my room, still looking at nothing. I am happy. It is the feeling I couldn't get in public life, socializing or going to some restaurant with live music. I feel highest degree of happiness is mostly in "private moments" we share with our self. Yet why we are told to be happy when we achieve something? Why the society since long has engraved in our minds that happiness is something which we can put to display to our neighbours by achieving something.

Everyone is acting infront of the other in some or the other form. We are trying portray what we are not. It is nothing very shameful in it because that is the society want us to do. Why should I shave if I don't want to? Yes if you say it's hygienic; don't be a barometer to my hygienic standards. Then if we see a person who has an ultra individualistic philosophy we hate that person. As we are not able to digest that how can this person do exactly what he wants. It looks odd to us. As society has not decided it as a standard in the list of exhibition.

I ask myself the life I am living, the ideals which I have or the statement of my philosophy for life is a reflection of my soul or of the society? Do I have anything which I can say to myself that I want this thing just because I want it? Not because it will prove my worth to society or parents. Slowly I have realized it is only we who choose to be happy and to be unhappy. We don't have to measure happiness with the standards of money. Money is needful only to the level of self luxury, filling the needs and going to holidays. I don't mind this. When money's role in life to be an exhibitionist it turns to be fatal. I mind circus weddings and filming funerals. It drives to discontentment.

Friends are equally important. I choose my friends wisely. I must find in them a sense of originality. As if we both tell each other that this is the real me, let me be a "bee". I am ready to stand by them when they need me. There are some who are very good friends. I can give my life for them. I can't live for them but in case they need my life I am ready to die for them. This give me a sense of happiness too.

I want myself to evolve more. Evolve to a point till two things become integral to the statement for my life. One, I must do acts just because "I" want to do them. No reasons or motives behind; other than my desire for that act. Two, I want my soul to come out just over my skin and galvanize my actions, my thoughts and my desire. To the outside world I want to be to what I am inside. This will grow my soul more and I will remain unchanged even 20 years down the line, even more.

In the declaration of American independence Thomas Jefferson said life, liberty and "Pursuit of Happiness" as an inalienable and inherent right to every human. Glad and amazed he knew happiness can only be pursued can't be bracketed.               

Ego is the fountainhead of Man's success

Reading Ayn Rand injected in me more than the above statement. The lead character Howard Roark gave the outlook what I can be outside my conservative action's cocoon. Reading Ayn Rand gives me vivid experience of how Howard Roark lead his life. It is very reflective in his personality that he has a defined philosophy of his life and a set of uncompromising principles.

There are instances of his heroic action with nothing heroic in nature. It might sound absurd and contrary at the same time. But it is true. Roark is a personality which doesn't know to please you. He will be direct on your face. He will also not sound insolent to you. In the calm voice precisely he will tell the truth. The person doesn't know to praise anyone. He doesn't have much "friends". He has no friends will be an apt thing to tell.

He would listen to you in a group. Very attentively like a hawk keeps eye on his food. But you will feel like it doesn't make any difference to him. Well Roark the lead is an architect in the book. What if he couldn't be an architect? He would have been an architect. He would walked over corpses. Any and all of them. All of us. But he'd be an architect.

It is not me who is saying this but his enemy Peter Keating is saying so. Think what made an arch rival to have a conviction such strong like this? Means, Roark must be a maniac for his job. He must have a zeal unbreakable for his work. Daily he would work and sleep only to wait for the sun to rise so that he can get up and start his work.

He doesn't end here. Roark doesn't believe in God. He is not fond of money. People find themselves at risk when Roark is listening to them. As he is very rationale being. Yes, it would have been less insulting if he would have not listened to you because it doesn't makes any difference to him.

The barometer of personality measures more for Roark. He will not shout at you even if you do. He will reciprocate peacefully saying almost nothing. He is a visionary. Who would even know the God of architecture if God of architecture exists.

It is his ego or attitude. I'm not sure. Yes, your ego and attitude will be your fountainhead for success. I read in Monk who sold his Ferrari that, investing in yourself is the best investment you can have. We must think of a fruitful personality, yes we can mould our personality. Give a thought.