Sunday, 24 January 2016

My statement of life

I am staring at the wall in my room, still looking at nothing. I am happy. It is the feeling I couldn't get in public life, socializing or going to some restaurant with live music. I feel highest degree of happiness is mostly in "private moments" we share with our self. Yet why we are told to be happy when we achieve something? Why the society since long has engraved in our minds that happiness is something which we can put to display to our neighbours by achieving something.

Everyone is acting infront of the other in some or the other form. We are trying portray what we are not. It is nothing very shameful in it because that is the society want us to do. Why should I shave if I don't want to? Yes if you say it's hygienic; don't be a barometer to my hygienic standards. Then if we see a person who has an ultra individualistic philosophy we hate that person. As we are not able to digest that how can this person do exactly what he wants. It looks odd to us. As society has not decided it as a standard in the list of exhibition.

I ask myself the life I am living, the ideals which I have or the statement of my philosophy for life is a reflection of my soul or of the society? Do I have anything which I can say to myself that I want this thing just because I want it? Not because it will prove my worth to society or parents. Slowly I have realized it is only we who choose to be happy and to be unhappy. We don't have to measure happiness with the standards of money. Money is needful only to the level of self luxury, filling the needs and going to holidays. I don't mind this. When money's role in life to be an exhibitionist it turns to be fatal. I mind circus weddings and filming funerals. It drives to discontentment.

Friends are equally important. I choose my friends wisely. I must find in them a sense of originality. As if we both tell each other that this is the real me, let me be a "bee". I am ready to stand by them when they need me. There are some who are very good friends. I can give my life for them. I can't live for them but in case they need my life I am ready to die for them. This give me a sense of happiness too.

I want myself to evolve more. Evolve to a point till two things become integral to the statement for my life. One, I must do acts just because "I" want to do them. No reasons or motives behind; other than my desire for that act. Two, I want my soul to come out just over my skin and galvanize my actions, my thoughts and my desire. To the outside world I want to be to what I am inside. This will grow my soul more and I will remain unchanged even 20 years down the line, even more.

In the declaration of American independence Thomas Jefferson said life, liberty and "Pursuit of Happiness" as an inalienable and inherent right to every human. Glad and amazed he knew happiness can only be pursued can't be bracketed.               

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